My name is Brian Tappe and this is my testimony. I’m 47 years old, 25+ of which I was an alcoholic/ drug addict. I lived a seemingly normal life, the youngest of four boys, parents still married. I have always known about God, but never really “knew” Him. I started acting out at a young age because I didn’t feel like I fit in. I started smoking and experimenting with drugs and sneaking alcohol at age 13 and it was to look cool so I wouldn’t get picked on. As I felt more “normal”, like I fit in, it progressed. I was in a car accident when I was eighteen that should have killed me; rather than thanking God I took on the attitude that I was invincible. I started partying every day. I lived my life reckless and carefree. There were many times I should have been dead. I woke up on my thirtieth birthday and the first thought was that I was alive, now what? I started to try digging myself out of my muck and mire. In 2002 I met a woman I thought was going to be my wife and the mother of my children forever. We did get married and had two beautiful boys together, Sean-Ryan and Daniel Luke. Unfortunately, I was too new to being sober and responsible. I ended up in prison, after leaving them for drugs and alcohol. The shame, guilt, regret and depression overcame me. I did my first AA/NA program in 2011. It lasted for a few years. I held a job and got better jobs, leading me to North Dakota in 2013. Everything was going great. My brother Mike, who I looked up to and was my best friend came to work with me in September, 2013. The 7th of October, we crashed our truck on the way to work, jumping it sixty feet. We both had minor injuries. November 1st, He was killed in another car accident. That was more than I could handle and I turned into a mean alcoholic. I hurt the ones I love, not knowing how to let go of the hurt I felt. On July 31st, 2015 I had a heart attack. I know God lifted me off the ground. At the same time of the heart attack, I had a blood clot in both of my lungs. Three months later I went and got a motel room and spent two months drinking and doing meth, U was at my end. Later in September 2016 I attempted suicide and survived it. At that point I knew God had a plan for me. I called Set Free and hit my knees begging God to fix me. It has been an amazing redemption process. All glory to God, I am getting restoration with family and am of service here at the ranch. I’m not going anywhere until He gives me direction. I know everything is possible through Christ who strengthens me!
Brian Tappe serves as the Assistant Cook at Set Free Men’s Ranch in Phelan