Without God, someone might wonder if there is a God at all. My life before I found the Lord was like watching a silent movie, things would happen and sometimes you saw a visual but didn’t really understand what was going on. As a single mother, I worked two jobs, but was still living with my mom. My parents were divorced, my mom remarried, and my Dad became a heroin addict, living out of a van. I tried hard to give my son a stable life until he turned five. Then my mom passed away and I had lost my footing in life. I needed money and couldn’t support Luke like he deserved. So my sister took him for a while until I could figure it all out. God knew all I was doing, it was all bad, selling weed first. I got enough saved to get my own place. But personally, my life was falling into a pit-depression, anger for my mom passing and no self confidence. I completely fell off the deep end. I overdosed on pills twice and I still didn’t seek God’s help. Relationships of abuse and neglect and losing my son slowly crept into my thoughts. I sold more drugs, getting into situations that for sure I was bound to get arrested for. Everything was out of control. One day while on probation for grand theft auto an officer asked me who I was. I gave him a fake name and boom! I was locked up for the first time in my thirty-five years of life, eight months was my sentence. Let me tell you, when they say God puts you into trials so that we can get closer to Him, they weren’t kidding.  There I sat, no one to talk to but sinners, thieves , killers. Liars and addicts. Nowhere else to turn and then my boyfriend sent me a Bible. He told me he would leave me if I didn’t take God seriously. That was it. There I was, sitting in jail reading my Bible and when I called my fiancé he offered me the opportunity to go to the Women’s Ranch. Let me tell you I denied it twice thinking I didn’t need it. Then the Lord gave me no other choices. So then I got out and went to the ranch. At first fear struck me because I was in a new place. But after getting deeper in the Word with my sisters and knowing just how much God wanted me to do good. I opened my heart and emptied my hands to Him. Do you want to know what the Lord did? He gave me so many blessings I couldn’t think straight. He gave me a relationship with my son again. My fiancé and I are now getting married and my sister is finally proud of me. God gave me wisdom to not sin and now I fear the Lord and have never been happier. I am confident that my spirit is of God and it seems endless. The possibilities I could have being with a man who loves Jesus and loves me, something I never thought possible—having a new family to take care of and more children to help raise. Only God and this ranch were able to give me that. Learning to love myself and being able to solely focus on just me is what the ranch can do. God lead me step by step and sixty days with the sisters of the most high helped me greatly. It’s not just a discipleship here; its learning to grow with the Lord and produce good fruit, having a chance to get to know other Christians in this house with God motives is something I never had before. Now not only is God a good friend of mine but these ladies are too. God blessed me because I fully trusted in Him and gave it all up. It’s a beautiful thing to trust in the Lord and to die to my sin.

1 Sam 25:6

Dan 9:4

Luke 2:14

Acts 17:25

1 Tim 1:17

1 Peter 3:18

Sarah Springer